Fatherday continued

So we went to the Hospital and the Dr told us he has 24 hours left, I told him it was OK to go , I sayed go golfing. But he surprised us all He tried to get out of the bed but he was to medicated he couldn't we took shifts his wife in the day me my Aunt at night so he wouldn't be alone. In that time he told me he loved me how proud he was and that he was sorry he had to go I told him it was OK that I didn't want him to have any pain we would have like a 2 minute conversation and than he was gone in his medicated world. But what I do know is that he loved me. So I had to get home to my kids it was ten days there my dad understood he kissed me and hugged me goodbye was the hardest thing in my life leaving him. Two days later I got the call that he had passed march 13 was the worst day of my life, I came home from walking the kids back from school and went to my basement and screamed my lungs out, I was pissed off. We laid my dad to rest June 1st and I honestly thought it would have been closure but it wasn't I think it was because we didn't have a funeral or viewing We just had a little gathering with family because he had to be cremated and sent to us. It's just hard to believe hes gone I miss him It is helping me by writing this down it's not just bottled up inside me. Rip Daddy and Happy Fathers day to the best dad I could have asked for

Fathers Day

Hard day for me today, I lost my father 3 months ago to liver cancer.He was truly my best friend. Lets rewind shall we My DAd moved away 5 yrs ago to B.C with his wife he loved it there but missed me and my kids and we missed him to sure we talked on the phone weekly sent cards Pict's and and letters but it just wasn't the same I mean I was him everyday before that. He first had Colan cancer but got rid of the cancer for more than 6 yrs but about 2 yrs ago he got liver cancer so they operated and took out half his liver everything was good, or so we thought it came back into the rest of his liver and spleen and in the words of my dad he was snickered. He came down in Sept of last year basically to say goodbye it was the best 2 weeks of my life and I will remember it for ever. After that he just got sicker and sicker so my Grama Aunt and I went out to see him it was my first time I was excited I knew he was sick but I didn't think he was that bad. We left on a Tuesday but I called him on Monday and we were talking all was good he was so excited and told me to ware my hiking shoes because he wanted to show me everything he told me that it's a dream come true that I was coming to visit him. We arrived Late Tuesday And when I saw My father I was devastated he was like 80 pounds he wasn't like that when I saw him last, I wouldn't believe it. He was heavily medicated and just looked right through me I sat beside him for 2 hrs with him not saying a word, than I said I'm going to bed he looked at me and asked for a kissed I jumped to give him one and than he was off in his own medicated world. I woke up the next day and his nurse had came and told us that it is time for him to go to the hospice I was like why wlf for I thought my dad would have been better in the morning.